Anonymous asked:

I have to vent, sorry for picking you at random. I'm hurting. I loved this girl with all my heart. I wasn't good to her when we were together and I lost her. She's got someone else now and I'm happy for her, it's been a long time. But she used to need/want me around and we stayed close and now it's as if I don't exist to her. I treated her like shit, I wish I never did. She was and is perfect, smart, sexy, nerdy. Fuck me dude. Sorry about this. I need booze.

Hey man, it’s totally okay to feel the way you do. Sorry I just saw this, life has been strange. Well, maybe that conflict was necessary for you to grow as a person and realise? It might feel like shit now, like there’s noone else who can compare to someone who one day stops finding happiness in our direction. But ultimately, there’s always someone out there that’s smarter, sexier, more nerdy, more “perfect”: finding that person, with the mature, wizened and more emotionally expressive outlook you have now compared to your last relationship, will feel so much more rewarding.

That said, hell if you’ve got a bottle I could do with some liquor right now

Lockdown is killing me.

Not seeing my best friends, my ex-band mates and my closest friends, having them think I don’t care is killing me.

The potential for a forever house arrest, life as one cycle of higher-up fuck-ups and collective imprisonment, is killing me.

Seeing people I thought cared openly laugh at those less fortunate who have lost homes, sanity, jobs and family. People who claim to be empathetic but are actually just as bad as the liars we the people “elected”, is killing me.

Watching a career path you studied years for be utterly wiped out. Not having an outlet of recreation that isn’t in front of a screen, or the increasing temptation to seek the needle and forget a while. Not having a reason to get out of bed other than not disappointing or worrying my family.

Time to pick out another recycled smile - the only mask I can wear without having a panic attack lmao

Is it weird that I like having this site as a sort of diary for thoughts that I don’t want people to know? It’s not like I have any followers anyway (thank god, especially not anyone I know IRL)

I came to a conclusion today: seeing someone completely forget who you are and the connection you had over time, is a far worse way to end a dynamic than to have an argument and have things cut off. At least an argument comes with finality. A sense of closure. Certainty.

Having a request to catchup with a truly wonderful friend be left on “read” by someone I can’t forget about, someone that I actually adored, hurts… so fucking much.

Is there something I’ve done for people to just drop me out of the blue? People who were longtime friends of mine now treat each other like old pieces of IKEA Furniture. What a world

just–space:

Haumea of the Outer Solar System : One of the strangest objects in the outer Solar System has recently been found to have a ring. The object, named Haumea, is the fifth designated dwarf planet after Pluto, Ceres, Eris, and Makemake. Haumea’s oblong shape makes it quite unusual. Along one direction, Haumea is significantly longer than Pluto, while in another direction Haumea has an extent very similar to Pluto, while in the third direction is much smaller. Haumea’s orbit sometimes brings it closer to the Sun than Pluto, but usually Haumea is further away. Illustrated above, an artist visualizes Haumea as a cratered ellipsoid surrounded by a uniform ring. Originally discovered in 2003 and given the temporary designation of 2003 EL61, Haumea was renamed in 2008 by the IAU for a Hawaiian goddess. Besides the ring discovered this year, Haumea has two small moons discovered in 2005, named Hi'iaka and Namaka for daughters of the goddess. via NASA